Just a little update, I've been at Bellarmine university in Louisville Kentucky since August 15. I'm an double major in elementary education and special education and been having the time of my life. I'm glad I'm away from home and can spread my wings and fly for once. I've recently been sick and that's sucking it's the only thing that makes me miss home. it's just a sinus infection though and with a little medication and a lot of water (3 litters. aka 6 normal bottles of water or 4 normal and a glass of water at lunch and dinner...yippe!) so here is my latest pondering of the human world


So I'm sitting in the library thinking about a lot of stuff. First how no one probably reads this, second how Bellarmine students are stupid and run in the library when it's clearly full of people working hard. but that's not the important stuff. I've been thinking lately why i even try to communicate with some people when they don't want to talk to you no matter what you say and they give short curt answers, i've been wondering why i've stayed hanging out with people who clear do not like me or i have a feeling don't like me.I'm a odd girl i'm a disney loving dork that loves to read, if i see a play ground i want to play on it. I'm a true kid at heart, i think it's why i make a great teacher, but lately i've been trying to change for people and all it's doing is killing my inner self and defeating the purpose and fact that i've always been proud of who i am, Weather it's making a midnight phone call to wish someone a happy birthday or walking to a park to swing and goof off for a while. I've also been thinking about study abroad and what a great chance it'll be for me to do. I want to go to sweden The people their are nice and friendly, They speak english and they have the number one education system in the world, that would be amazing to go a see first hand. To try and incorporate some into my own classroom. But most of all it'd be amazing to be away from every one and start to see who i really am. to come out of my shell and arrive. That's what college is about, Getting away form the known and going in to the unknown, seeing what you can do on your own and not with your mom or best friend right their at every second. As i've been thinking i also think that anyone that wants to stop me form doing what i want is just jealous and mad that i'm getting to fallow my dreams and getting to do what i want. I'm breaking free from the years of everything and from high school and moving on to another world. and in four years i'll move on again and change again, if people truly love me and want me to be the best me, they'll route me on. But now I should start my 3 papers and my compelling argument as to why i should be allowed to study in Sweden in spring 2011. It's truly what i want and where i see my self going.